November 28, 2012 at 1:45 am (Mile Stones) (, , , , , , , , , , )


There were two thought/questions that the Spirit whispered to me as I packed up the lil’ apartment. First, what if you packed all this up and you never had access to it again? Second, where does order come from?

It stands to reason that I am all “transferred” over to the new abode and now I am so sick I haven’t been able to unpack much since Sunday. I have had a fair time of it for the last 2-3 years and been healthy. This bug jumped out in front of me like a Mac truck and I was going the maximum allowable speed when we collided! The struggle ensued as I began to try to deduce what I had missed. Surely I could have prevented this one. Perhaps I left a piece of my battle armor off? I could have been more grateful. It amazes me how quickly I begin to assign blame to myself for something as simple as getting an illness. Should have wiped down that shopping cart, used antibacterial gel there, here. Ugh, God have mercy! You know how and why. In any case I am very sick, and its not a punishment. My head and parts of my heart know this.

So here I am literally in fetal position with high fevers and aches that resemble being plugged into an electrical socket! Along with all the other “Nyqil” requirements. Boxes need unpacking. Furniture needs arranging. Kitchens done praise God! Bathroom functional. Bedroom too. Everything else is detail…the thing I do well the least. Requires that order and involved the boxes of my book babies that was suggested perhaps I may never have access to. Hmmmm…guess He wants my undivided attention here! At the moment I could care less about those books, and hey, you can walk from one room to the other without stepping over anything! I have access to my tissue, medicine, herbs, vitamins, and a place to lay my head. Who needs more than that? As to order just a click to one side of chaos but it isn’t a reason for insanity! 🙂 I digress…order is not something we as humans can pull out of our hats. Only God can create order and chaos, and considering His Works they always exist side by side.

I have been able to read a Psalm or two each morning…other than that my reading eyes are on sick leave. I can’t focus right now. Sam, has been great. My Sister Joey, who went to the hospital with a bowel obstruction has tried to nurse me from her sick bed in the hospital! God has been so exceedingly good.
The order of the day right now? Rest, the Battle belongs to the Lord! Trust Him. I have been put off the front lines for His good purpose, and I must obey Him in retreat as well as launch! Ohh, launching is so much more appealing! Retreat sounds like defeat. Its not though, regrouping and rest are part of Gods order. When I am sick like this I realize what really matters is His voice inside me, His presence. Everything else fades. Be still, and know I am God. He moves me, packs me, unpacks me, stores me, orders me and cares for me at all times.

As I type, I am rocking with aches and praying for a window of sleep to come soon. Yet He said, begin…and His grace is sufficient. I shake my head….how was it I ever thought I could figure Adonai out? What I do know is astounding and inviting. What I don’t…I am learning…either I will in His timing or I won’t. Its up to Him, and I have more than what I need! My cup overflows!

So now I wait…
To be:
And reordered.
Restored healed.
It will come, and I am “still”

Grace and peace in Yeshua the Messiah ❤

1 Comment

  1. dlaw53 said,

    Sometimes God “hits us like a Mac truck”, so that we can get Spiritual and physical rest. Don’t feel guilty, that is just a waste of energy. Don’t try to figure out God, because that is not our purpose. The way you serve Him is what He wants you to do. He is the Vine, we are the branches. We all have different parts and responsibilities in how we are to serve Him to help others. God will give you healing. You’ll get those boxes unpacked. All will be well my sweet Flutterby. I Love you so Much, Auntie D ❤


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