Hello again, Word of God, speaking incomprehensible wisdom to this wait weary soul!
Where do trials end? I wonder. ..
The wait for forward movement to a long and obscure process, moves forward. The answer is given, “wait no more”. For those just coming on board to this story, it’s been spaced out and my post have significantly reduced over the last 2 1/2 months. The reason? We were given the green light to move by Adonai. The desired destination in Sam and I’s heart went north, back to Montana. God pointed to Albuquerque NM. We thought about it for about 5 seconds, and obeyed. Found a house that seemed to have just been waiting for us. Every single thing on our end lined up, checked out, and flowed. The house? No so much. Complications arose that stunned everyone involved. My lender said they had never encountered such unusual circumstances in 14 years. It was far from what can be called “typical hang ups” in the whole house buying process. Then God after saying “wait, hang in there with Me, I’m doing something here.” Finally said, “Enough, move on.” With the relief that comes with tension that alters the structure of bones, tendions and ligaments in a limb that has been forced to hang on, release happened but it came with little reward. We don’t have to wait on that house anymore.
I’m back here in Albuquerque about to launch on house hunting again tomorrow. I’m not excited. In fact, I’m tempted to call and cancel tomorrow. I’m tired. I’m tired of houses, I’m tired of looking at temporary things! I’m tired. The business we just started still taxes our reserves. We’re bone weary. What was the purpose to that whole senario? We may never know. We lost money, we lost time, we lost sleep. But we didn’t lose our trust in God. We’re wealthy people, indeed! The above scripture tells the tale. At least in some very small measure. We were buying truth, character, not a house. It was never about buying a house. In these cases usually one of two things happens. Either one buys the illusion of this world. House, home, security, financial betterment, something to put ones personal touch to. Which amounts to a house buying them. Or a house is obtained and the inner character of the only home that matters (inside ones soul) grows beyond the square footage of the structure one just moved into.
How does one buy, truth? To purchase something one must pay something to obtain something else. Most transactions use money to get the thing, whatever it may be. Trading isn’t really a method anymore. With a few exceptions like vehicals and in some cases houses. But these are more upgrades than trades. Either way theres an exchange of “goods”. The drastic difference in buying truth is we bring absolutely no goods to the bargining table. We exchange lies for the truth, upgrade selfishness to service, purchase humility and throw away the old pride rags we once wore like a good broke-in pair of shoes. In this case, we purchased integrity over shelter. People were considered more valuable than the house. It’s still perplexing everyone involved. Us included. People who failed royally to do their jobs, were prayed for in blessing, and we dove in to do their job without a second thought. Where did this come from? I mean, we’re still as human as anyone. It stung. It annoyed. It wrung us out with frustration. But when asked to move forward, through that, trade it for gratitude –
we simply dug in with joy. Many people involved bought the truth and didn’t sell it. Not just Sam and I. The end result seems deflating. Well. …if looked on with human eyes. God’s glory is blinking all over the whole thing. Just because we don’t see it as humans understand victory, doesn’t mean it’s not there. That is truth. Bought and sold, no regrets, not changing my mind. So what, so we don’t come away with the house. The home that matters has been remodeled, expanded and appraises far greater in worth than the most expensive piece of property on earth! The foundation is laid on Yeshua (Jesus), who bought no house, but owned them all. Who slept more in the wilderness but deserved the finest bed known to man. He was at peace because His Father’s house followed Him everywhere and made everyone else welcome, nurtured, and cared for. This was/is His delight. Therefore it is in Him that these character changes come to be formed, no credit can be accounted unto our account. We simply bought the truth and didn’t sell it when everyone else said “sell it, move on!” (Well not everyone, but most). God said “don’t, stick with it, trust Me!” We did. That is all that matters. Then when He said, “Enough, move on.” The same action is being applied as we speak. Still no idea what He did there, and what He’s doing now. More to be revealed.
I’ve never ever thought about this whole life as being one long transaction of buying Character, purchasing truth. Now I know. What a difference that perspective brings to all things. I’m not looking forward to house hunting tomorrow, but I am curious. ..what transformation of my character is about to be done? Not only in me, but everyone involved and watching once again.
Oh how I pray the glory of God continues to sparkle around every inch of the journey. Character and Truth can only be bought from the Maker of them. We never get the deed to sell off when we see fit. It’s our inheritance to value or plunder, but its given – never depending on the knowledge of which we’ll choose – by Him. And we’ll give an account of it, whether we plundered or valued it. But we were never able to get ‘rid of it’, sell it, once given, it is and always will be ours to account for. We can’t be fooled into thinking our weakness cancels the investment. Or anyone else’s weaknesses involved. The results don’t guarantee what seemingly to us was the goal. We don’t have to read God’s Word for long to figure that out. His ways are not ours, but they are always right, just, true, and best. The real results I’m awaiting come only from His lips – saying…”Well done!”
In the above verse, there are three more things we are instructed to “buy”. To expound on them at great length with words is pointless, except with these. ..”If you don’t buy the truth, the three that follow can not be purchased”. They all go hand in hand. Buy the Truth, and the rest come as a package deal. But try as we may to purchase wisdom without truth and chaos ensues. Discernment bought without truth is pure folly. And how, how can discipline be bought without truth? If you lack any of the following three, it’s pointing to the first as the deficiency. The Truth is a person, it’s God Himself and His greatest Character.
We serve God from the overflow of our relationship with Him, not as an aside to it. – Wayne Stiles
♡ Grace and peace in Yeshua the Messiah ♡