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April 18, 2016 at 1:08 am (Mile Stones, WSGD Newes) (, , , , , , , , , , , , )

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I’m sitting in this living room. ..obedient to the call for a day of rest, the sun has set on milky grey blanketed peaks, city lights sparkle under its protection. I see this from my window. Six long months of house hunting, buying, moving. ..all the while starting this business, exhaustion has been redefined in this physical body that houses my soul. Not soul weary, just acutely aware that the ever growing and full of life soul that has met it’s Savior face to face still lives in a very finite and fallen state. Grace suffices, no…it is far more than sufficient – it’s as infinite as the One who gives it – Elohim, Yahweh, I Am, God the Father, Holy. And it’s strength is beyond measure.

It’s quiet, the kind of quiet that rings in the ears of another Kingdom. Shalom, the burden of Yeshua lies on my shoulders, indeed, His yoke is easy and His burden is light. Him, who held a countless number of sins and knew beyond comprehension the thoughts and hearts of every soul, how can this be? How can this yoke be full of freedom? It’s a tenuous thing the know; the weight of freedom and the tension of sin balanced on the flow of the Messiah’s blood.

This house, a blessing, such goodness God has bestowed, yet not ours, just a shell really. Daily waiting to be filled with Him on the inside. This is the highest responsibility of maintenence and upkeep for any home, rent or own. Who will we fill it with daily to keep its walls strong and roof secure? Its foundation unshakeable? This roof needs work, the whole house will require much to make it undefective. Already is required far more than we thought we had energy or resources for. It’s whole process, again, reflecting what’s far more real and important to the Builder of our home. Each repair reflecting our own hearts and thoughts, some from neglect, some from forgetfulness, some from simple blindness, all the while the Light of the World stands within her walls and asks the question:

“Will you stay in the light and let Me heal and restore? Or will you dim the light for a while more? I know you are weary, Child, you could just wait, but I’m here now, shall you learn of Me?”

I’m learning. Grateful now that the whole thing still has no connection to my deep parts. It’s just a house, lovely and a privilege, but so flimsy a thing to hold on to.

So many think that they reflect who they are with those things they possess. But really we at best can only reflect who we think we are, what we think we like or want. Deep down my heart cries for simplicity, less things, less not more. The truest gratitude I know is that now I can have company, and they can feel welcome here. But all the extra space is also a burden without the company. We are only two people, 1600 square feet, seems excessive to clean daily. Guess God will have to fill it with His people, broken, weary, and joyful alike, those whom He had set aside specifically to benefit from His house on Baltic Ave SE here in Rio Rancho. This is His home, not mine. May I never take possession of it!

My Home, is the Maker of Heaven and Earth, in which this house sits on and under. This place awaits the true sounds of life, not tvs or music or electronic hums, but of the sound of my grandchildren’s laughter and friends and family, and yes, even the sounds of their heartaches and hurts. These are the sounds that harken heaven to earth’s door, pouring out of the endless cup of the Father’s love, which insulates walls, strengthens foundations, secures roofs, maintains gardens and keeps the lights lit. For now, my husband’s smile prepares the place for these. The pot of roses my mom gave me holds the promise of such blooms. Their presence walking through our door, with the clicking of Pippins little paws to announce them, this makes all this seem worth it.

Tonight, I sit and remember these Words:
John 14:1-3; 23
Don’t let yourselves be disturbed. Trust in God and trust in Me. In My Father’s house are many places to live. If there weren’t, I would have told you; because I am going there to prepare a place for you. Since I am going and preparing a place for you, I will return to take you with Me; so that where I am, you may be also.
If someone loves Me, he will keep My Word; and My Father will love him, and we will come to him and make our home with him.”

It is a very hard thing to obey and take the day of rest when so very much still needs put in order, fixed, repaired and done. Trust in God and also in Me this is a high calling. Will there seem like enough hours in the days ahead? Likely not. Yet, all things needful get done everyday according to His plan. Definitely not according to ours most the time. I lay my head down for a few short hours of rest each day with the list dropping endlessly down with my eye lids of things undone, missed, forgotten or simply I’ve run out of energy to do. It’s hard. Yet my heart hears the Father say, it is well. ..it is well for today. I choose trust in those words, my lists will have to obey a higher knowledge as I place them into His hands each day. The more I live the more aware I become of my limitations and His limitlessness! This is my Home, this place of humility and frailty, but His matchless grace all the more! Where time yields more and more into His hands, my youth no longer the “con man” it used to be. (Smiles)

Home. His presence, His purpose, His timing, His ideas, His love His teaching, His guidance, His dreams, His desires. ..Home.

May we all find Yeshua (Jesus) Words be true daily, that He takes us there, He gives His yoke, His shalom (peace) each day to exact measure. That His Word is kept as the steadfast maintenence of our hearts, the temple of a Living, active, loving, gracious, Merciful God, where His Home is made in each of us daily. No need for deeds, loans, physical repairs, paint, caulking, wires, facets, just Him, His person possessing each corner, hall, room of our hearts. Flashing the true furnishings of its dwelling, faces of loved ones, prayers, thanksgiving, and praise. Where the imprint of knees bloodied on the floors from petitions for His provision in His will are the hallmarks of the life lived there. And the echoes of worshiping Him never fade. He lives! He dwells here! Come and see! The goodness of God makes a Home!

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♡ Grace and peace in Yeshua the Messiah ♡

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God’s Ways: Rerouting Perspectives

January 26, 2016 at 2:17 pm (Mile Stones, Remodeling the Mind, WSGD Newes) (, , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , )

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Exodus 33:14-15;16b
He (Adonai) answered, “Set your mind at ease – My presence will go with you after all.” Moses replied, “If Your presence doesn’t go with us don’t make us go on from here…
That is what distinguishes us, me and Your people, from all other people’s on earth.”

Has it ever occurred to you that God so often used very odd circumstances to get in to a place deep within us, that has absolutely nothing to do with the circumstances themselves? He sets the board, and what we see moves us forward accordingly. As things progress, it becomes rather obvious that He’s moving in through back doors to the goal He had in mind. Almost as if He distracts us with our limited vision and surface prone tendencies, to sneak in where we wouldn’t have went with Him any other way. I’ve experienced this on many occasions, recently as well. The past experiences didn’t que me in to look for His back door agendas in any of these cases. When God wants to move in behind something, no human on earth can track His movements until He’s reached His destination! Only then, can we look back and trace His path, but not until He’s popped up in the seemingly most intentionally sneaky way. It’s been said repeatedly before: “if we saw where God was leading us, we’d most often recalculate our GPS in the other direction.”

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At the end of October, 2015 God pointed His finger, very obviously, in the direction of a new location, new plan, and said “go buy a house, in that place.” We were set on a different location for moving, our plans moved north with our hearts, Montana was home. He pointed South. Our plans were to move into an RV and with our new business travel, live simple, and find a home base in Montana at some point. Sick of moving, sick of all the stuff that one accumulates in a house or apartment, we wanted to be free of it, and mobile to go where God said go. All very good intentions, none violating any will of God, but still not His will for us, however our perspectives saw it.

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So the house hunt ensued, we found one, and all hell broke loose in the process. Two months of grinding, stressful and rest stealing work began. Staying close to Him, we followed every step, endured crazy situations, and wound up with it all falling through. Not the results we humans expect when we feel we’ve done all God asked of us. Yet even at this place, we trusted and went forth on another house hunt (it continues). All the while, God was with us and went before us, we knew that. What wasn’t obvious was that He was slipping in behind us, moving into the center of us, arriving at His intended destination, our hearts, His Home, not a relocation or house on earth. God knows us so well, we don’t face things unless we’re forced to. Circumstances are the forces He uses to bring us to that inner mirror, the one that reflects us back at ourselves but not only do we see ourselves but we can’t avoid seeing ourselves as He sees us in these moments. It’s a faithfulness on His part to go so great a route to get us there. We don’t need to just see ourselves, we need to see ourselves with Him. All the grace and mercy He has to give is ready there. If we just see ourselves, raw and rotten, without Him – we will be lost and walk away without remembering what we look like. But with Him, as hard as that reflection may look with His perfection hovering about us, there’s a pivotal transformation that becomes possible. The circumstances that brought us there, fades into the background becoming relatively insignificant. The house, the place, those were and are insignificant compared to His presence and passion to develop His character in the home Yeshua and His Father took up residence in the day we turned our souls back into Their care. (John 14:23)

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At this juncture, Adonai has revealed His path into the back yard of our hearts, and we are now “getting down to business”. The house hunt continues, relocation all on the horizon, but the real work is right where we are, no matter where we are geographically. Big things that have been hidden and slipped through the cracks are being reflected in His eyes, ever so compassionately and full of that grace that pours out like roaring rivers, Sam and I stand at this place of healing intent. I reach my arms out wide to receive whatever shall keep me here until He has done all He shall do. I pray my beloved will do the same. I have confidence in the work of my God and His ways. More to be revealed. ..but today its enough to know He’s with us. That this alone is what distinguishes us as His – His presence – nothing more, nothing less. We hover at the mirror, eyes on Him and tracking His finger where He is pointing within, waiting on the grace, holding onto the new mercies He’s promised this morning will provide, yielding to His hands as they reshape the clay that these circumstances have softened enough to submit to Him. And once again, we wait. ..He works, we wait. He shapes, we yield. He holds us, we lean into being held.

A quote from Wayne Stiles book Waiting on God.

This section comes from the chapter titled Letting Go.

To resist or resent the time God’s priorities require amounts to resisting God.
Waiting on God reminds us of those facts. Waiting keeps us humble. Waiting shows us over the passing of time that it’s all about God and none of it is about us – except to the degree that we glorify Him. Remember, the goal is God’s glory, not our productivity or personal fulfillment. In our waiting, God weans us from the pride of having to control everything or understand matters “too difficult for” us (Ps. 131:1). God chooses how we glorify Him. He alone selects which of His servants will produce what levels of output – and yet, He also rewards faithfulness on any level with equal commendation (see Matt. 25:14-23).
God works through our waiting to strengthen our character through weakness, to develop our peace of mind by trusting Him in chaos, to teach us that we can glorify Him just as much by waiting on Him as we can by serving Him. When we choose to find our fulfillment in His glory, then we can wait on Him to open the door of greater influence in His time. That’s really His business entirely. Ours is to live faithfully wherever He puts us now.
God’s timing knows it’s own reasons. Perhaps the delay occurs to test how seriously we will pray. Our maybe, in spite of all we’ve learned, God still has more to teach us. Our maybe the delay has little to do with us at all – because it depends on someone else responding to God.
Whatever the reasons, I’m convinced that in most cases God delays because He wants to give us more than we’re asking for. He loves us enough to wait to give us His best rather than to satisfy our impatience with a quick, cheap substitute. That’s why we mustn’t equate His delay with a deaf ear. Sometimes what seems like God’s apathy is really His mercy.
Slammed doors do more than bend your nose; they keep your heart pliable, sensitive, and available to God’s leading. Not only does He keep secret the difficult valleys you’ll experience (and many of the mountaintops) but also the tremendous lessons you’ll glean no other way. Lessons you didn’t know you needed to learn. Lessons you’ll thank Him for one day. You may fail to recognize God using you significantly because you define God “using you” in terms of what you consider significant: results. God defines results in terms of character. Words like productivity and efficiency remain conspicuously absent from the fruit of the Spirit (see Gal. 5:22-23). These results of God working in your life all reflect character – His character. Character alone produces godly results.
– end quote, (they came from various sections; in order but with some left out for length shortening purposes)

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Buying Character

January 20, 2016 at 2:35 am (Mile Stones, Remodeling the Mind, WSGD Newes) (, , , , , , , , , , , )

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Hello again, Word of God, speaking incomprehensible wisdom to this wait weary soul!

Where do trials end? I wonder. ..
The wait for forward movement to a long and obscure process, moves forward. The answer is given, “wait no more”. For those just coming on board to this story, it’s been spaced out and my post have significantly reduced over the last 2 1/2 months. The reason? We were given the green light to move by Adonai. The desired destination in Sam and I’s heart went north, back to Montana. God pointed to Albuquerque NM. We thought about it for about 5 seconds, and obeyed. Found a house that seemed to have just been waiting for us. Every single thing on our end lined up, checked out, and flowed. The house? No so much. Complications arose that stunned everyone involved. My lender said they had never encountered such unusual circumstances in 14 years. It was far from what can be called “typical hang ups” in the whole house buying process. Then God after saying “wait, hang in there with Me, I’m doing something here.” Finally said, “Enough, move on.” With the relief that comes with tension that alters the structure of bones, tendions and ligaments in a limb that has been forced to hang on, release happened but it came with little reward. We don’t have to wait on that house anymore.

I’m back here in Albuquerque about to launch on house hunting again tomorrow. I’m not excited. In fact, I’m tempted to call and cancel tomorrow. I’m tired. I’m tired of houses, I’m tired of looking at temporary things! I’m tired. The business we just started still taxes our reserves. We’re bone weary. What was the purpose to that whole senario? We may never know. We lost money, we lost time, we lost sleep. But we didn’t lose our trust in God. We’re wealthy people, indeed! The above scripture tells the tale. At least in some very small measure. We were buying truth, character, not a house. It was never about buying a house. In these cases usually one of two things happens. Either one buys the illusion of this world. House, home, security, financial betterment, something to put ones personal touch to. Which amounts to a house buying them. Or a house is obtained and the inner character of the only home that matters (inside ones soul) grows beyond the square footage of the structure one just moved into.

How does one buy, truth? To purchase something one must pay something to obtain something else. Most transactions use money to get the thing, whatever it may be. Trading isn’t really a method anymore. With a few exceptions like vehicals and in some cases houses. But these are more upgrades than trades. Either way theres an exchange of “goods”. The drastic difference in buying truth is we bring absolutely no goods to the bargining table. We exchange lies for the truth, upgrade selfishness to service, purchase humility and throw away the old pride rags we once wore like a good broke-in pair of shoes. In this case, we purchased integrity over shelter. People were considered more valuable than the house. It’s still perplexing everyone involved. Us included. People who failed royally to do their jobs, were prayed for in blessing, and we dove in to do their job without a second thought. Where did this come from? I mean, we’re still as human as anyone. It stung. It annoyed. It wrung us out with frustration. But when asked to move forward, through that, trade it for gratitude –
we simply dug in with joy. Many people involved bought the truth and didn’t sell it. Not just Sam and I. The end result seems deflating. Well. …if looked on with human eyes. God’s glory is blinking all over the whole thing. Just because we don’t see it as humans understand victory, doesn’t mean it’s not there. That is truth. Bought and sold, no regrets, not changing my mind. So what, so we don’t come away with the house. The home that matters has been remodeled, expanded and appraises far greater in worth than the most expensive piece of property on earth! The foundation is laid on Yeshua (Jesus), who bought no house, but owned them all. Who slept more in the wilderness but deserved the finest bed known to man. He was at peace because His Father’s house followed Him everywhere and made everyone else welcome, nurtured, and cared for. This was/is His delight. Therefore it is in Him that these character changes come to be formed, no credit can be accounted unto our account. We simply bought the truth and didn’t sell it when everyone else said “sell it, move on!” (Well not everyone, but most). God said “don’t, stick with it, trust Me!” We did. That is all that matters. Then when He said, “Enough, move on.” The same action is being applied as we speak. Still no idea what He did there, and what He’s doing now. More to be revealed.

I’ve never ever thought about this whole life as being one long transaction of buying Character, purchasing truth. Now I know. What a difference that perspective brings to all things. I’m not looking forward to house hunting tomorrow, but I am curious. ..what transformation of my character is about to be done? Not only in me, but everyone involved and watching once again.

Oh how I pray the glory of God continues to sparkle around every inch of the journey. Character and Truth can only be bought from the Maker of them. We never get the deed to sell off when we see fit. It’s our inheritance to value or plunder, but its given – never depending on the knowledge of which we’ll choose – by Him. And we’ll give an account of it, whether we plundered or valued it. But we were never able to get ‘rid of it’, sell it, once given, it is and always will be ours to account for. We can’t be fooled into thinking our weakness cancels the investment. Or anyone else’s weaknesses involved. The results don’t guarantee what seemingly to us was the goal. We don’t have to read God’s Word for long to figure that out. His ways are not ours, but they are always right, just, true, and best. The real results I’m awaiting come only from His lips – saying…”Well done!”

In the above verse, there are three more things we are instructed to “buy”. To expound on them at great length with words is pointless, except with these. ..”If you don’t buy the truth, the three that follow can not be purchased”. They all go hand in hand. Buy the Truth, and the rest come as a package deal. But try as we may to purchase wisdom without truth and chaos ensues. Discernment bought without truth is pure folly. And how, how can discipline be bought without truth? If you lack any of the following three, it’s pointing to the first as the deficiency. The Truth is a person, it’s God Himself and His greatest Character.

We serve God from the overflow of our relationship with Him, not as an aside to it. – Wayne Stiles

♡ Grace and peace in Yeshua the Messiah ♡

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Holy Relocations

November 15, 2012 at 12:29 am (Mile Stones) (, , , , , , , , , , , , )

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Spending time with God: that place and space where His breath fogs the window we are looking out of and more than I can imagine gets left on the pane to remind me “This is what’s real!”

Moving.
Packing.
Wrapping, stacking, tracking.
Reminds me where I am lacking and have stuffed that spot with excesses in nothing but things that take up space and add weight to the journey.

I am in the middle of my (hang on a sec I gotta count with my mental and physical fingers)…30th move! Holey magoly, that number astounds me! I am only 41 years old! Needless to say my folks moved around the Northern Denver suburbs, then I moved out and carried on the  “family tradition” it would seem. Though when we bought our house in Kalispell, Mt I unpacked and planned to be buried little by little on that 1/2 an acre of earth over the next…30 years or so…or until I drew my last breath whichever came first.
I hate cliche sayings, but I must digress “Man plans and God chuckles” (I don’t “hear” a Halloween like mmmmmaaaaaahhhh from Him, more like a tsk tsk giggle type thing) Though He clearly led us to the house and practically bought the house for us…well His timing was His best kept secret. So much like the God I am getting to know…when He moves I follow…and He is constantly “on the move”.

Consequently my heart is therefore, always longing for my feet to land long enough to grow mildew or have the earth grow up around them to prove their “staying” ability.
I am this time so grateful we sold over half of all we owned before our shuffle back to Colorado! I have since honestly only accumulated a few DVD’s and about 2 dozen more books since then. The rest has actually moved out; broken dishes, shoes and clothing that have worn out so badly not even the Goodwill can’t use them. I’ve given quite a few books away so even my used but newly acquired delightfully bound friends won’t be adding more weight than I moved in with. Yet as I started stacking them in boxes today, this question/thought grabbed at the based of my heart and wrapped itself there like an echoing dream in a movie all day.

What if these never came out of this box and became “accessible” to you ever again?

Hello my Lord 🙂 I see You are moving more than my address again! I often tend to simply block out that You are a Gardener and Your expertise is pruning, among all the other things like seeding, watering, planting, weeding.

Among the many things about moving I hate…I really wish an OCD certified ability to organize was among my resume. Its not. I do okay, due to the grace of God alone, mind you. Its work for me though. I can organize a billion thoughts, words like a pro, but ask me to organize a room…and I fall on my sword! Next thought/question…

Where do you get your sense of order? Where does it come from?

Chew chew…pack pack…chew…stack…hmmmm. At this point I am able to know that both these thought/questions likely are strangely connected and have very little to do with the physical world He’s using to connect my “dots”. So like Yeshua (Jesus), using what we see, know, and the world we interact in everyday to draw us into His classroom for the real world. I’ve also learned that waiting is an art form that adds clarity to what He’s teaching! My imaginary hand went up like an eager student in a classroom with a thousand perfectly sensible and reasonable responses to those two whispers in my ears.

For the last 4 or 5 years or so God has really challenged Sam and I to take His measure on those “things” we think are needs verses the “things” we think are wants. In so doing our “habits” have changed dramatically. Shopping for just what you need daily (or every couple days) verses shopping in bulk type thinking is one example. You would not believe the feelings of irresponsibility that attempted to “break in and steal” what God was doing with that one! Akin to not having life, health insurance as considered irresponsible in this world too! Based on Yeshua’s words there’s no such thing except in the Kingdom of Heaven. And asking only for what you need for today is the only way He lived and taught about. Takes a whole lot more trust in God to live that way! So…over the course of those years much has been “let go of” mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. Moving can take on so many forms! Truth is as long as I am His Child I am constantly moving towards my permanent home with Him. Packing, letting go, selling off, hauling and relocating this home He now owns inside me. I signed the deed over to Him.

Another little peak into my heart for these stacks if stones He asks me to pile up along the way. Introspection is my primary language…(snicker). I am fearless to do that. Though He is faithful to show me, I am far less comfortable with it than I think. Hmmm…yes, moving is uncomfortable. I grew up in a culture that has made comfort a responsibility!  An obsession. The Kingdom of God is offensive to that above all else. My Master is invasive or at least my self-absorbed/self-protected perceptions feel that way…alot! I am learning to allow Him to re-route my hard drive this way though. Talk about freedom, puhh, rights as we perceive them have nothing to teach about freedom. Mayhap that’s why people in countries without them don’t look for comfort, so much as purpose in discomfort.

So as I pack, wrap, stack and relocate this Thanksgiving I am asking for clarity in the function and purpose He has to show me in all things uncomfortable. I ask you to pray likewise for and with me. Also for the “be still and know” grace that I need while He pulls those thought/questions together for me. Seeking true satisfaction verses feeling content or happy is an act of obedience to Adonai. I want the “well done”, much more than the “well said”. 🙂

 

Grace and peace in Yeshua the Messiah ❤

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Lifted by Love

September 11, 2012 at 2:21 pm (Thoughts to Ponder) (, , , , , , , , )

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Here is a beauty.
Persuaded of the eager forgiveness of the Son of Man.

Assured that He could not drive from Him the very worst of sinners, but loved – nothing less than tenderly loved – anyone who turns their face to the Father.

She will no doubt, have to bear her trespass in the eyes of the unforgiving who look upon her, but the Lord would lift her high and welcome her to the home of the glad-hearted!

Grace and peace in Yeshua the Messiah ❤

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