The Joy of Being Part of God’s Kingdom

November 18, 2016 at 2:38 am (WSGD Newes) (, , , , , , , )

I was born into the world of Christianity. my parents were saved, most of my influential family members were saved. We went to church on Sunday, observed the holidays in view of God’s purpose in it – as best as it was taught to us. So the importance of all these things seems to have afforded me a foundation, right?

I’ve been reading Nehemiah. Chapters 8 – 10 are eye opening in relation to these things. Obviously, a blog post doesn’t afford to print out these chapters word for word. I rely upon your own seeking to read these for context. The basics here is this: God started a church here. Just look at all these people did, their commitment, their passion, their zeal and. …their JOY! I thought to myself, “I didn’t see that when I was young, and I don’t think my children did either.” It’s a disheartening thought. 

To be fair to those who served the Lord within the church, pastoral staff, worshipers, teachers, leaders and servers, I’d like to qualify: there are no fingers of blame in this blog. Nor to my family, parents or any other sector of fault finding avenue. There is nothing in my heart or mind following such paths with this. 

To learn from the past, apply in the present, in order to make a legacy. We must go back and find where our own thoughts, formulated opinions were influenced and formed. We must see where WE, ourselves, went wrong, not the masses, organizations, or institutions. These only have power to influence, not form. Yeshua (Jesus) proves this. 

After more study, ending up in many other books of the Word, I’ve noticed a huge impact. 

Read Deuteronomy 5:29-6:8.

When I think of conversation that flowed in my own family as a child, and then my own family with my own children. These scriptures are hard. The conclusion I come to is nobody knows how to do this very well. To talk excitedly about how cool God’s Word is, how His ways are so impressive, and trustworthy. To apply this context to everything we see, touch, smell, and do everyday. Somehow entertainment started to take presidence. I remember thinking it was hard, not fun to memorize scripture. Sometimes due to the fact that it was given as a task for punishment. Mostly because there was no context given as joy and application to its meaning in my life, where I was, at the time. Everything stayed on the level of salvation (what can be done for me). There didn’t seem to be more than that. What pleases God, what doesn’t. Yet what brings Him joy, this seemed to be missing. To the mind in my generation, I believe humans in general, but I’ll stick to my generation; What pleases God wasn’t connected to His joy, but rather His appeasement. No one delighted when I did the right thing, they only moved in swiftly when I didn’t. Everything had to be entertaining, this push was started before my generation, but by the Eighties this was epidemic. Worship was the only place I saw joy in church. The music was amazing, the show was fun. God’s Word was the duty part, not the highlight. The teachers had to be dynamic or “gifted” as many put it. I never met a “gifted” Sunday school teacher. No disrespect to them. At that time even school was not really about learning except to the geeks. It was about finding in our peers what was missing at home. So “Sunday school” it seemed to me was the same. The church seemed to be teetering on this brink of ‘stand out’ but acceptably. Set apart was taboo and meant alienation, most of my peers already felt this at home. Alienation from God never occurred to me as the saddress thing.  So one can see why appeasing God this way held little appeal. Not that it’s ever held appeal anyway. History again repeats this point. The world slowly invaded my perception of right and wrong. The passion and joy of talking about God and His ways as we walk on the way, sit or rise, etc…this was never introduced to me. I couldn’t give what I never got. The church became the teacher of children. Parents either didn’t know how or were too busy to fit it in. On both I stand guilty as charged. My heart breaks that my passion and joy in the Lord and His ways that I have now, was not there when my kids were young. There are good things my family passed on, faithfulness. I remained steady in my quiet time and church going. I am grateful to God for His grace and mercy in this. Yet now, I watch my children with their children and see that even these aren’t repeated. Life’s heavy burdens keep them down. The church has lost its calling to share, split up and divide and help. Government organizations now have the overwhelming task that God meant His People to provide. Families of origin must be wealthy or they can only simply pray and cry and hurt with those within that struggle so much. Again the passion and joy of sacrifice and serving are lost. While there are programs in churches designed to help, the politics and overwhelming needs stunt it’s progress. It has been lost for too long, now the task is daunting. The me-ism of society is a cancer that has reached the marrow of the body of Christ. Again it’s the Joy and passion of God’s ways that are missing here. 

How did I find this joy and passion? When my whole being started seeking God in every way, in everything, at all times. Really seeking Him knowing Him. This is today’s speak for seeking Him with all your heart, mind and soul.  How I wish I’d have started sooner! Yet, as the Word of God says. ..His timing is perfect. So I must trust. Trust that this is the appointed time for these words, to the eyes that will read them, and perhaps turn faces up to Him to effect what changes He may direct. 

Deuteronomy 8:2-3; Malachi 3:10; Romans 12:2; 2 Corinthians 13:5-8; 1 Thessalonians 5:21; 1 John 4:1

The above scriptures all have a common theme, and I think much value in gaining passion and joy in the Kingdom of God. It’s an invitation to test, scrutinize, see for yourself that God is good, reliable, His ways work! They more than “work” they are amazing! It’s a joyous invitation, delightful adventure, and full of fulfilment. Do we example and communicate this to people around us? Well, first, we must discover for ourselves the truth of it! I pray if nothing else, curiosity is raised here, perhaps there is something missing, something far more real and attainable in this walk with God than has ever been invited before. 

Hear His voice, the One who wants more than anything to be known, put all things before us with the shouting invitation to “Come and see, taste that the Lord is good” so that we can truly teach our children such, truly live such and therefore persuade a neighbor, Co-worker, friend, family member, stranger. ..that this invitation is such a wonder and joy that it’s pursuit will neither drudge nor bore but give passion and joy, such as this world would pale to emulate or try to educate. 

I pray for our world full of families with children who have children who desire to give them everything. … Adonai, is everything. …come and see!

Grace and peace in the name of Yeshua the Messiah😊

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Sacrifice Defined

September 12, 2015 at 12:45 pm (Devotionals, Remodeling the Mind, WSGD Newes) (, , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , )


Thanksgiving as a sacrifice…what does this look like?

Sacrifice means it cost us something to give; whatever the thing may be. Something that is hard, to the point of rendering one destitute. Lets look at the widow Yeshua (Jesus) praises in Luke (21:1-4) as she was poor, she likely had no way to know how she would pay for food or her bills, but God moved her to give all that remained of her money. Look at the depth of this story.

The widow knew the church (the body of people in the temple and it’s leaders) was corrupt. She could see very well that the money given to it was hardly being used to help the poor such as she, and likely most the people she knew. Yet, she obeyed, trusting God, not the church, giving her money to God, not the church. The sacrificial give here? Her own perspectives, way of thinking – rationalizing, she instead thanked God for what she had to give and gave it all to Him.

Verse 4: “…but she, out of her poverty, has given all she had to live on.”

She could have fallen back on the hardship of her widowhood, made her circumstances the terms by which she negotiated her thinking and giving. I’m sure times we’re hard. Instead she thanked the God who gives and takes away. The sacrifice of praise, even in circumstances that feel hard – don’t initiate praise inside; she chose instead to see her standing as unchanged in His sight. The outward circumstance may look different but the reality of her standing in the Kingdom was what she chose to live by. The sacrifice of giving up our own perspectives and praising God instead of pleading for help and staying in the sorrow – this is the greatest and most costly sacrifice we will make to God. It is most precious in His sight.
So she gave up everything she “owned” both in the physical world and in the inner world where transformation is done. We often make the people in the stories of the Bible inhuman, meaning above those human responses, just because they did indeed rise above them in the stories. The widow thought and felt just like we do, rationalized as best she could, as we do, but her knowing God, changed her choices. Isn’t this what it says?

John 17:3
And eternal life is this: to know You, the One True God, and Him whom You sent, Yeshua the Messiah.

Most don’t sacrifice with thanksgiving, because they don’t know God. Knowing about Him is not the same as knowing Him.

Do we teach our children how to do this? How young are they when they are exposed to the concept? When they scrape their knees and we tend to them with love, do we then pray with them saying,

“God we praise you for scraped knees, we don’t need to know exactly why they are given, but we trust You. May You open our eyes to look for You the most in painful circumstances. We welcome all opportunities for You to show Your love, healing and power as greater than anything on earth we experience and see. Thank You, Father, for scraped knees and the opportunity to praise You. Amen”

This contradiction to all our senses to think and act on such sacrifice is profound. Some may call it extreme, crazy and taking things “too far”. Some may, some do, always have, always will…but as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord. Yeshua praised the Father for what He was doing when Lazarus died. He waited to go, I bet He didn’t want to, but He waited till The Father told Him to go. Sacrifice is always what we give up of ourselves for another. We trade our desires, wants, needs, thoughts, perspectives, feelings etc…for God’s instead of our own. And we know that they will be strikingly different, as Isaiah was faithful to write it down – “My ways are not your ways, nor My thoughts your thoughts.” (Isaiah 55:8)

So read the first part of the Psalms above again.

“Whoever offers thanksgiving as his sacrifice honors Me…”

Then the next part comes into focus.

“…and to him who goes the right way, I will show the Salvation of God.”

The sacrifice of praise in all ways that seem contradictory, hard, and awkward…this sacrifices our view, our opinions, our perspective (which we know is always but a speck of the whole picture) and our lean or bent; this is what this Psalms is speaking of. Without the first, the second is impossible.


Show us our Father, open our eyes, for great is the need for this lesson to be applied to us, cemented in our hearts. We depend on You to teach us, as we know this action takes You, Your Holy Spirit, Your Word to enable us in action. Our lean is to complain, fall back on excuses, run towards a “help me” prayer (though we know that we need help, and this is not wrong) instead of trusting that You are working as hard for us when the hits come as when all is well. To say, “Praise You God” for the broke down car, loss of a loved one, hurt and pain of those who misuse, abuse and mistreat us – this is not our first response, and without You it shall never be. We want to be like Your Son, our Master, and be able to turn our cheeks to those who smack them, to give without looking and calculating whether we have it “in our opinion” or not. To simply obey, without hesitation, praising You the whole way, knowing nothing will happen that You can not provide for. ..this is what we pray.

It’s easy to think of sacrifice horizontally (with people). But vertically? What is sacrifice for God? How could it be anything other than our ways, and our thoughts? It’s easy to praise Him, when things are well, or even in the “norm”, but in hard times? To actually say “thank You.” when we are in a tough spot, experiencing great pain, hurt and anger? What else could it be but the sacrifice being spoken of so often in the Word. Is this not what we watched our Lord do, to our own perplexity? That even, steady, consistent example of His inner world (very human) completely sold out to trusting the Father. Oh how all who watched Him, walked with Him, knew Him, we’re touched by Him wanted this that He had. Peace.
Those who walk with, watch, know, and are touched by Him still do. They bare the hallmarks of it as well, as it begins to change them from the inside out. It’s more than a simple “I trust You, Lord”, it goes way down deep and pulls up a “Hallelujah, glory glory glory to the Most High”. Joining the constant refrain of Heaven (read all the refrains in Revelation) at times when doubt, fear, frustration, anger, and resentment lurk around looking for the opportunity to steal from this joining in with heavenly discourse. Do we remember how our enemy is described? A thief, searching for someone to devour, rob joy, pull down and snuff out the light? It’s not his delight to do this because it brings us down. No! It’s because it steals from the glory of God, which resides in the praises of His people. Not just the kind of praise of a thousand voices ringing in song to Him, but most importantly the praise that comes from a child whose tendency is to become self absorbed focusing with earthly eyes; instead – those eyes track with the eyes of the Savior and begin to lift up with heart, mind and soul a “thank You” and chorus of “glory” that heaven itself turns towards and joins. Sacrificial praise, points us to the Way, and we can not help but see the Salvation of God. He has and always will ‘out-sacrifice’ us! Glory to God, in the highest! And Shalom – peace to His people on earth!
Selah – Amen!


♡ Grace and Shalom in Yeshua the Messiah ♡

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Passion for Truth

January 13, 2015 at 2:44 am (Remodeling the Mind, Thoughts to Ponder, WSGD Newes) (, , , , , , , , , , )


I bought a movie for $1. I’d been looking for this movie for months. Remembering that it was an “award” winning movie back in 1999, The Insider starring AL Pacino and Russell Crowe; somehow had become a 2nd rate movie. I scratched my head. (I do this a lot 🙂 ), as I always do when asking, “what’s changed?”. I was able to finally finish the movie (thank you techy Hubby) in parts and pieces late this evening. This movie contains one of the last great stories of News reporting and investigating of my generation and I believe, the buck will stop there. In these last days, great truth telling news and investigative reporting has been reduced to documentaries that get pushed down the media “slaughterhouse”. The major news networks don’t remember. Don’t recall. And more important; don’t have an audience to support the fame of truth telling to promote it anymore.
It grieves me. It grieves God. BUT.
It had been prophecied that this is how it will be. Once again, proving the Word of God, tried, tested, and true.

I sit here tonight… wondering…pondering…praying. A dear sister in the Lord and my Aunt just got called up to Adonai’s lap. I know she had so many questions, left this life with an anxious soul because the truth confused her rather than comforted. Though she loves Yeshua (Jesus) with all her heart, and her heart bore much fruit as a result, I can testify. Much freedom of the truth Yeshua spoke of was not realized for her “this side of heaven”. It’s undeniable to her now!!! It’s fully realized for her now. I praise God for His faithfulness. For that, in the end will be the only thing praise- worthy…the only thing. I also praise Him because of the process and the journey that somehow He knows is nesassary for us all – this moving between awestruck wonder of Him and total lack of trust from one minute to the next. Everything means something – and it all points to Him.

It occurred to me there is a great deal of connection between the truth of what Yeshua shared about the mustard seed and the law of tithing a tenth of everything we have to God. Not just of everything, but the best of everything we have. How the trust we have if even as small as a mustard seed moves mountains; that if even a tenth of what we are inside (this is the great harvest of fruit – fruits of the Spirit/Kingdom of God) stays true to the best (honesty, integrity, courage, compassion, mercy, forgiveness, love, endurance, purity) these things will carry the day and by proxy make the whole vessel move in Truth’s direction. I have lived long enough to see the truth of these principles, that originate from God, be true 100% of the time. Tithing was never meant to focus us in our money, it was meant to focus us on our worth to God. On how He provides the key instruction for our good and the good of all those around us. The Passion for Truth is not a trend or set of religious beliefs, it’s the breath of God! The Truth is a person – Yeshua Ha’ mashiach! The mustard seed of trust in the Father is as we speak moving mountains, changing landscapes, bearing fruit, – the Kingdom of God is near!

I suppose it does no harm to shout at the top of one’s lungs “Shun everything without absolute truth in it!”. Sadly though too many have trained their ears to hear rigid legalism in this mantra. So tonight, I whisper. Lean in…
Seek the meaning, the very character of God Himself in the instruction to tithe (Old Testament), and the story of the mustard seed (New Testament). I promise…there will be no doubting the results. Not compulsions to adhere to rules and religious works, but a response of joyous obedience due to the fact that freedom inside becomes more real. True freedom – from anxiety, worry, dispair, hopelessness, routine, boredom, hatred, resentment, bitterness and the stress of everyday living.
America, land of the free?
It’s possible and He starts within me.

Good movies are so rare these days. I recommend The Insider. It will point you to the Truth. Even though it never mentions His true name Yeshua – Salvation. There is a tithe and a seed in it. Who else can it point to but Him? For here is a truth: anything that points to truth can only be pointing to Adonai, Elohim, Yahweh,Yeshua, Jesus, the Spirit, – the One True God.

Don’t confuse facts with truth. Here is what I mean. Fact: Yeshua is the Son of the Living God, the Messiah – Salvation. Truth: anyone who puts their trust in Him will be Saved. See the difference? Even the enemy (satan and the demons) know the facts and shutter! But the Truth of Him does not save them. See the truth of His character spoken in example for us with Cain and Able with the principle (direction for living) of tithing. Able brought his sacrifice (tenth) from the storehouse (within) of what is acceptable to God, the harvest of fruit from within while he was doing it on the outside. Cain, however, brought just the product gotten from the outside (the fruit on the inside was dead – choked out by comparison to his brothers work and resentment of the fact that he thought he should have had something better). How could God accept Cains sacrifice? His heart was far from the truth and focused on facts. Truth points ones heart up and with humility sends one out. Facts fall like dead weight (enslave) compared to the truth. It’s possible to be very factual and totally clueless to the Truth. Wisdom is required to produce fruit from facts. Sacrifice is required to tithe. History has proven over and over (fact) that it is harder to sacrifice what we think and feel and see (what’s inside) as “right” and exchange it for only what God says is Right. But doing nice things on the outside requires nothing – anyone can do it. Or rather,God can cause anyone to do anything. Pharaoh was caused by Yahweh to let the people go, but his heart was unchanged and he quickly used his own mind as soon as God let go of it and went back out to round them up again. Fact: God free’d His people from slavery. Truth: Yahweh is Freedom. If one is passionate for Truth, Yeshua, His Father and the Holy Spirit will be seen in everything one does. Taken into consideration about everything, consulted first, and finally submitted to in all things. Cain could have submitted to God when He corrected him. He did not and the whole of his vessel was carried away by his inner fruit. He/she who has ears…let them hear!

Ezekiel 7:26-27

Calamity will follow calamity, rumor will follow rumor; they will seek a vision from the prophet, but Torah (The Teachings/Instructions) will perish from the cohen (priest/shepherds) and advice from the leaders. The king will go into mourning, the prince will be clothed with fright, and the hands of the people in the land will tremble in terror. I will treat them as their way of life deserves and judge them as they have judged others. Then they will know that I Am Adonai.

1 Corinthians 2:13-15

These are the things we are talking about when we avoid the manner of speaking that human wisdom would dictate and instead use a manner of speaking taught by the Spirit, by which we explain things of the Spirit to people who have the Spirit. Now, the natural man does not receive the things from the Spirit of God – to him they are nonsense! Moreover, he is unable to grasp them, because they are evaluated through the Spirit. But the person who has the Spirit can evaluate everything, while no one is in a position to evaluate him.

2 Corinthians 4:2-4

…On the contrary, by making very clear what the truth is, we commend ourselves to everyone’s conscience in the sight of God. So if indeed our Good News (New Testament) is veiled, it is veiled only to those in the process of being lost. They do not come to trust because the god of the ‘olam hazeh (this world-this age) had blinded their minds in order to prevent them from seeing the light shining from the Good News (Old Testament) about the glory of the Messiah, who is the very image of God.

2 Timothy 4:3-5

For the time is coming when people will not have patience for sound teaching, but will cater to their passions and gather around themselves teachers who say whatever their ears itch to hear. Yes, they will stop listening to the truth, but will turn aside to follow myths. But you, remain steady in every situation, endure suffering, do the work that a proclaimer of the Good News should, and do everything your service to God requires.

2 Timothy 4:22

The Lord be with your spirit. Grace be with you.

♡ Grace and Shalom in Yeshua the Messiah ♡

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What Women Want ~ Conclusion

March 11, 2013 at 11:19 pm (WSGD Newes) (, , , , , , , , , , , , , )


What do women want?
Really…deep down…where shames and burdens they were not created to carry yoke their souls to the culprit of “society”? Where the slightest exposure to light sends them straight back to a tree, where all thoughts get reverted back to their own capacity to understand; and thereby their God-given beauty wilts and withers under the weight of too many burdens – 100 backs in full youthful ability can’t begin to lift an inch off the ground.
Where the manna of heaven becomes a complaint in tasteless repetition…
And blindness is epidemic to purpose…
What do women want?

These questions invoke a reader…pull us in. Yet they are the wrong questions from beginning to end. Want to know what women want?
Ask the One who created them.

What do You, Father, want in this woman?

Ahhh…then the beginning of not leaning on our own understanding begins…cocooning the old form…encasing it in a wisdom that can not teach in any other way than:


Listen to the sound of LIFE!

(Oh I beg of you to check your mind at the door here, and ask Adonai (the Lord) to open your eyes to the world of truth, our own minds often blind us to. Please set off to the side the “gender” of who penned these words in a human hand…instead taking it in as God Himself giving these words to any form of life He created, She who has ears…let her hear…)

Psalm 139:13-18

For You fashioned my inmost being, You knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I thank You because I am awesomely made, wonderfully; Your works are wonders – I know this full well.
My bones were not hidden from You when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes could see me as an embryo, but in Your book all my days were already written; my days had been shaped before any of them existed.
God, how I prize Your thoughts! How many of them there are!
If I count them, there are more than grains of sand; if I finish the count, I am still with You

Isaiah 58:6-12 ~ God speaking…

“Here is the sort of fast I want – releasing those unjustly bound, untying the thongs of the yoke, letting the oppressed go free, breaking every yoke, sharing your food with the hungry, taking the homeless poor into your house, clothing the naked when you see them, fulfilling your duty to your kinsmen!”

Then your light will burst forth like the morning, your new skin will quickly grow over your wound;
your righteousness will precede you, and Adonai’s glory will follow you.
Then you will call and Adonai will answer; you will cry and He will say, “Here I Am.”
If you will remove the yoke from among you, stop false accusation and slander, generously offer food to the hungry and meet the needs of the person in trouble; then your light will rise in darkness, and your gloom become like noon.
Adonai will always guide you; He will satisfy your needs in the desert, He will renew the strength of your limbs; so that you will be like a watered garden, like a spring whose water never fails.
You will rebuild the ancient ruins, raise foundations from ages past, and be called “Repairer of broken walls, Restorer of streets to live in.”

Beauty. This word and woman are almost synonymous. Lets hear how “the world” teaches beauty to a woman. How is distorts its purpose.

“But tell me how it is that she could be so beautiful without any heart at all – without any place even for a heart to live in.”

“I cannot tell,” she said; “but I am sure she would not look so beautiful if she did not take means to make herself more beautiful than she is. And then, you know, you began by being in love with her before you saw her beauty, mistaking her for the lady in marble – another kind altogether, I should think. But the chief thing that makes her beautiful is this: that, although she loves no man, she loves the love of any man; and when she finds one in her power, her desire to bewitch him and gain his love (not for the sake of his love either, but that she may be conscious anew of her own beauty, through the admiration he manifests), makes her very lovely – with a self destructive beauty, though; for it is that which is constantly wearing her away within, till at last, the decay will reach her face, and her whole front, when all the lovely mask of nothing will fall to pieces, and she will be vanished for ever.”
~ George MacDonald ~ Phantastes

Beauty to God is a matter that clothes a thing of function. Beauty is the natural result of the thing or creature that lives into His will. Making life instead of taking. Beauty is not and can not decay. If it does, it never was. I am a woman, and the beauty I have is kept hidden in the heart of my Master. For those who have eyes to see it, He has given the sight to see, but not me…Him!

Security. Name a woman you know that doesn’t desire this! For within its frame; protection, provision and peace fall into perfect trust without the slightest effort.

It is sometimes almost terrifying to stop and think of the scope of the demands made upon us as children of God, at the perfection required, at the totality of self-abandonment expected of us. Yet outside of such absoluteness can be no salvation (security). In God we live every mundane as well as every exalted moment of our lives. To trust in Him when no great need is pressing, when things all seem to be going right, may be even harder than when things seem to be going wrong. At no time is there any danger, except in ourselves forgetting that it is God who breathes life into everything, that we are nothing – without wisdom or insight – in and of ourselves. Take care that you do not love anything more than the will of God; take care you do not love even your people more than the will of God. If we were right with God, we could see the earth vanish and never heave a sigh, God – of whom it was all but a shimmering revelation – would still be ours!
~ George MacDonald

Again we ask the Maker, where does security come from? Oh how He longs to show us! Making a solid thing inside that without His guidance, we see only the outline of something in a fog.

So much in this series has only been touched upon…the grasping of it’s rich vast unending resources…lay at His feet. A flower expresses what God was thinking when He made it. Our response to it may reflect on our faces, usually the face reflects what we think of ourselves. When we cease thinking of ourselves, then, like the flower, we will show what God was thinking of when He made us. And this…is ultimately, whether a woman can admit it or not, the culmination of what she is born to want. All the other subtitles, categories and details fall into the great Cause of Purpose when anyone, man or woman, seeks first the King and His Kingdom. Beauty becomes something from another world, time, space and dimension. Life…a heart fully alive in the Messiah Yeshua (Christ Jesus) transformed with every single second we breathe by His renewing of our mind, having died to ourselves – we live for the first time and that for eternity…never to die again.

What do you…want? If you can not say words to form an answer. There is One who can show you what you want, how to “un-want” what He designed you not to. How to truly want what He designed you for. Ask Him, He has all the answers, they are 100% of the time right, trustworthy and hold the keys to everything– for a woman…or a man…a flower…even the dust that blankets the ground…from which He breathed us into being.


Grace and peace in Yeshua the Messiah ❤

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What Women Want ~ Interlude

November 15, 2012 at 11:54 pm (WSGD Newes) (, , , , , , , , )


The hardest thing to accept in life is that so many of the lessons we turn full tilt into to learn often come when the damage of ignorance and pride have already left a deep impression on those we love the most. From not pressing into the learning until its in many cases “too late”.  ~ LV

I call this an interlude because I feel this urgent need to clarify a few things. For those who don’t know me, this may come across like a huge string of humility. For those who do, it may be that you haven’t “nodded your head” so much in so many years! “Yep, thats true!” your brain will say.

As God has impressed upon me (that’s putting it mildly, placed a burning coal of fire under my conscience is more like it) to write this series; I’ve been a bit argumentative! You could say I sound much like Moses did with the Burning Bush.

Why me? No one will listen to me! I gave my only birth child up for adoption. And my step children, O Lord, You know they were born of my heart! Yet they have never come to me for advise! I did more things wrong than right. And quite honestly I feel like a total hypocrite saying any of this stuff! O, I agree with all You have taught me, and Your way. Yet how can I convince anyone to listen to this when my own children are grown and no longer home, I made all the wrong choices, and here I sit detailing what You have taught me, all I bleed in repentance over, but my “turning” can’t be exampled by actions quite the same. Yes, yes, I have turned and do what You say now, but ….Yes, I know its not my ways being taught…yes, its not about me, yes, yes I will obey and leave the rest to You.” Sigh…

I tend to focus where I have the most regret, healthy regret, not self-depreciating condemnation. How the veil of the modern day woman dictated my actions as a mother. Wife, sister, friend, daughter all fall in there too, but my biggest crater of pain is the impression those years left on my son and daughters, nieces too. I mean, oowww! It truly feels like its too late, and in the sense that I can not go back it is. God is the God of forward, straight onward, and right through. Straightening what has been twisted is completely His domain. The past is not something we can change, only today. He stands out ahead, hand out-stretched and eyes full of “Trust Me”, telecommunicating “I’ve got all that, don’t deceive yourself into thinking it’s even a little bit in your hands! I forgive you, now lets watch Me change you, here, now, today.”

Yet, the feeling of hypocrisy just would not get out of my face! Voices like,
“YOU didn’t do that with YOUR kids! YOU can’t hope to convince anyone now. Look at your life now, no kids to raise, the one’s you have either do all they can to convince you their “just fine” when they’re not, or they simply don’t talk to you! And all your lady friends…they all say ‘Hmmphff, easy for YOU to say now! But say and do all that with kids at home NOW, with all the financial pressures NOW!’ YOU don’t know how hard it is, what with a Husband who supports you like yours does, and no children to try to “rewire” living at home to “thank you” for your obedience!”

Yes, I know where these “voices” come from, I know who’s behind them; but there’s some truth in there that’s hard to ignore! As a woman, we are more than wives, daughters, mothers; ie: the roles we fill. This is the main focus of these posts, yet sometimes its just plain hard to separate that! It takes an act of God! Indeed it does! The burning coal that drives me here is just that. God is on the job! He is full of compassion in His mission! He see’s it all, and can enter into all of its frayed edges and cross-contamination and His divine enablement is 100% guaranteed! It’s just as true, that there is no such thing as “too late”. Did He not cover all my own folks’ mistakes, right here inside me? Has He not done exactly what He said He would? “I will never leave you or forsake you, even when your parents do!”

So, paired with this odd confessional, my emphasis before heading into Part 4, is this;
As you read, take it in as an introduction to truth, but let Abba lead you to repentance! It will not look like what you think it will, there’s no formula. No quick fixes either. There’s the Truth and the submission to Him in setting you free. He is so detailed in forming and shaping each of us to His exact “specifications”, look around you, He is far from interested in making the same thing twice! There is no methodology to walking with God. I hate books and lectures that start with “4 (any number) easy ways to…talk with God, hear God, be a good wife (mother, friend, etc)” Dear fellowsheep hear me! BEWARE of these kinds of learning materials. The word easy should be your first clue that somethings amiss! I don’t care if the number of “steps” is 1000, they will only apply in a 1 to 1 ratio exactly that way, 1 time. God makes no repeats, the only thing that is universal and the same for everyone is that Yeshua (Jesus) is the Way to the Father, the Truth to guide us, the Life to give us. That’s it! He can use soap opera’s to get His child’s attention, and cartoons another’s, and sports another’s. All to bring them to the same place of learning but even that will move differently for each. Formula’s are for earth bound techniques, NOT Temple building, Kingdom bringing, Child rearing in heaven’s! Not even a little bit! It’s the lack of predictability of walking with God that scare us the most! Trade that fear in for the Truth! God may be unpredictable, but He is totally trustworthy! His ways may be hard, but they are, always have been and always will be the absolute best way for us! Easy is a lie. Hard can be redefined. Know that it is one step at a time. One little thing here, thought there, allowing ourselves to be reeducated by the Creator of our whole being, and our children’s and our husband’s and our friend, families, neighbors, co-workers – all of us! Only He can work in one person that takes all they touch into the account of “working all things for the good”! He’s an expert at it!

The road can look rough for us when we start looking at the lies we’ve bought as truth, the compromises we made we thought were ok, the ways we have shaped our own lives instead of letting Him, the way we have defined God that stands in complete opposition to who He really is! Its not for the person looking to make life more comfortable. Its down right humbling and hugely rewarding! We won’t get the credit for any of the changes that incur, but we won’t want to either. This goes for men learning from God’s design what they were made for, not just women. Hence no one is “ahead or behind” the other in the blame factor. The requirement for sin, is being human. One exception, Yeshua. That’s it. Everyone else is, does, and will. All of them make up the mess we live in. The “heavy” is not on women nor is it on men.

I have made huge mistakes in my life, huge. I have failed my loved ones, still do. I am no poster-child for what gets posted here, only a sold out, actively pursuing the change believer in what God has taught me through my short years so far. Today I am no hypocrite to the words I say and actions I choose. Thanks be to God alone. I don’t know why He asks me to speak out, now that my children are grown and gone and it seems so easy to say but not required to do if they were still here in my home. I can only say that I have went the opposite direction as I did, as Gods woman child, now. Its has been far from easy. Yet everyday I choose to obey Him, the less I care what it has “cost” me in comparison to the closeness of my relationship with Him. Not only Him, but those He has been faithful to bring into my life as brothers and sisters along the way. The ones that have stuck with me in all the mess, and see my heart for Him and as such creates that special bond that nothing even imagined can shake. Relationship is Gods mission, with Him in us and within His family, semantics are nothing.

Grace and peace in Yeshua the Messiah ❤

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